vision

Recently, I've wondered what my purpose is. Why am I living? What brings me joy and fulfillment? Sure, the quick answer is to glorify God and serve Him with everything I do. Going deeper than that though, really, what am I living for?
In Proverbs 29:18, it says that where there is no vision, the peopel perish. I think it's talking about the vision for a group of people. But I also think it means in an individual's life. If I don't have vision in my life, my life will perish. It will be meaningless.
I need vision.
I am not a visionary person. I never have been. I have always taken life step by step and taken the future every day as it comes. I don't have great plans or dreams for my future.
But I think, in order to fulfill God's plan, I need to have vision. Vision for my future. For teh work of God in my life. For those younger than I, who are following my example.
Vision comes from God. I need to ask Him, and He has promised to give it to me. It sounds so simple, but it's not really. Asking God for vision is also saying, "I will follow that vision." That, in itself can be pretty scary, because of the fact that we have no idea where God may lead us.
I want vision in my life. I want to live for a purpose. But I have to ask myself, what am I willing to put down so that I can pursue the vision God places in my heart?